Saturday, August 26, 2006
If i hav e time...
Once i cleared all dese tests n tuts n quizzes no kidding yea
Im gonna
1) get a tattoo of my name( Lia) n a clover on my back
2) finish my manu so i can edit n send it asap
3) get hold of Tues wif Morrie as highly recommended by dear jk hehe
4) go ice skating
5) go kb3oxing
6) finish watching ARIA Natural which so totally rox my world
7) E MOST IMPT 1---go watch a lame movie n hav a nice dinner wif my mum hehe( URGENT!!!)
Hating e world n loving my life
ToRemainorLeave? 11:05 PM
Someone close 2 heart asked me sth i neva tot of 2day
" Do u believe tt everything happens 4 a reason?"
I was struck
It felt as if sum1 jus slapped me hard across e face
I had no idea
wat i shld say
Or rather how I wld answer even 2 myself
I shrugged n replied after sumtime
I hav no idea at all
Mayb if sth happens tt can make me believe tt everything will fall into place gradually lyk a jigsaw
My answer mayb a yes
But till then...
My fren replied
Wat if tt sth has alr happened or e truth is so in ur face but u still wun accept it
I mulled over it
N i guess tt when it happen my heart wld probably let me noe tt dis is it
I hope
Bcos as my fren always say
E truth is not 2 b seen
But 4 believing in
ToRemainorLeave? 2:31 AM
Friday, August 25, 2006
dis is sth i came across while doing sum research on symmetry 4 my inorg chem tut
e words r unforgettably
beautiful
luv it
"Tiger, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Shaped thy fearful symmetry?" ..... William Blake
ToRemainorLeave? 11:53 PM
Wat happens when u realised u made e wrong choice?
N u hav 2 stick wif it hru ur life?
It will impact ur life so much ur fate lies in ur hand...
N u suddenly rmb tt u onli get 2 live once
Will u go along wif it jus lyk every1 else cos its safer n "correct" 2 do so?
Or will u fight agst it even if u noe u mite end up regretting fighting?
Or shld i fite jus 4 e sake of doing so?
So tt i noe deep down tt im still myself, e same old me..
Dun i hav 2 take responsibility 4 my own life?
Den y do u tell me tt listening is E THING to do
Seriously i dun give a heck abt anyone else
Yes im a selfish piece of crap
I hate regrets
Hate e ifs
Wat if i had done dis instd? Will i b happier now?
I'd b thinking 2 myself on my death bed
If i can predict wats gonna happen
Which future ahead of me is better
Mayb i can sit down n analyse e uncertainties
But luckily i cant
So tt no comparison can b made
For all the words tt cld b written down by pen
The saddest are " It might hav been.."
I noe dis bcos i've been dere b4
---Lia Leow
ToRemainorLeave? 11:35 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
Everyone's gotta deal wif deir own shit no matter wat happens
Cuz no one else is gonna understand u
Bother 2 c things thru ur eyes
Put deir ass in ur shoes
Cuz everyone else got deir own crap too
Wadeva e mess u're in pick urself up
Tt's e onli way 2 get stronger
N if i dun expect u 2 wipe my ass
Dun expect me 2 hear ur whims
ToRemainorLeave? 9:06 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
its late but i cant get 2 slp
haven slept a wink 4 e past few days
no i wasnt up doing my work
jus had too much things on my mind
my life is revolving ard me lyk a whirlpool
im so tired but i jus lie on e bed awake all nite
listening 2 e clock tick away
even though im having a splitting headache fr lack of slp
i nid a break
nt fr sch nt fr work nt from all e fake smiles of e ple
im tired of trying
realli i am
i dun say it i lol
but im so screwed
so much more den any1 can imagine
call dis mood swing call dis a passing phase
im afraid of everything
so afraid i cant slp
n e more i cant slp e more messed up i feel
e lects i slept thru r more den dose i attended
when all dis ends
n wadeva happens
i think ill b sad
sad n scared
truly
ToRemainorLeave? 8:11 AM
Life is a bed of roses
when e flowers of facade fall off n wither
e thorns below r exposed
yet nb will begrudge e roses
4 every rose u get lotsa thorns follows
e pain of the thorns
only u urself will understand
4every1 hav deir own beds of thorns to sleep over
if hope fertilizes e soil
water e bed wif ur hopes
such tt e petals will cushion ur fall
bearing in mind tt no matter how much dreams u hav
e flowers will still wilt 1 day
n e pain will resume
---Lia Leow
ToRemainorLeave? 6:53 AM
im pissed off wif e world
lyk nb's business
act im most pissed off wif myself
tt i cant survive sch by myself
w/o my fone im lyk super lost
w/o kit's voice over e fone i feel super uneasy
w/o jk im lyk shit
w/o myself n my stupid self-consciousness
I'll b damn happy
I wanna rely on myself
cos we all came n will leave dis world alone
ToRemainorLeave? 6:48 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006
Empty the milo truck....
Saw dis phrase on sum banner in sch wif jk yest...aupposed 2 b abt breaking sum record n all...n i dunno y( other den it itself being hilarious)...I was rather struck by it....memerised i guess...at how a few simple words tgt n create such an impact n linger in both mine n jk's mind e whole day at lect yest..haha...well at least jk reached out 2 e call n satisfied her desire 4 milo at e canteen hehe...jk's e man..anw life is gd so n far...2day's my free day dis wk...cos labs hav yet 2 start..so i better cherish 2 day n set out 2 do all e things i wanted 2...lotsa things hav happened lately too tt i haven updated...class outing which was realli realli fun n yup realli missed e class ple n quack too( ps i reported 2 jk wat we did n she was lyk, " 1st hagen daz den dinner den coffee? eat how many meals altgt?" haha but as we all noe s27 outings WILL n SHOULD b spent eating n gorging woohhoo)...staying over at teo's( which was realli fun esp e running n singing n macs delivery hehe) n yup im realli proud 2 hav sum1 as dependable n havoc n true fren as bobby...i was quite touched by sth tt kit offered 2 do n giv up her movie tix 2 er herm...dis made me think abt whether ur crush or ur fren is more impt 2 me haha...but ultimately..tho i noe i'll regret it...i'd much rather choose e latter n spend e rest of our lives tgt at spin tgt yea...haha kudos 2 spin!!!!
ToRemainorLeave? 5:10 PM
