Thursday, March 30, 2006
The reason y im blogging twice a day...is bcos i hav an issue...wif dis world...can any1 pls tell me y every1 loves judging, wants 2 b judged in a positive extolling manner, yet grudged abt it when dey r being criticised? which is in fact wat im doing rite now in dis pathetic blog of mine...If i ever hav any principles...which i lyk 2 think i hav...it'd be that unless u r higher up den human beings...u basically hav no right 2 judge ur fellow homo sapiens mates...no right 2 say who looks or dun look stressed...becos i realli dun give a damn abt how i look or i'd b spending my $ going 2 beauty salons instead of paying 4 an education which requires me 2 poison myself in e labs...no rite 2 say who has authority or has no authority...unless u r THE SOLE suthority in dis world...which unfortunately does not exist except in ur pathetic bubble...n no rite 2 say nb else is tired except u bcos tt's so freaking self-centred...no rite 2 go ard doing wat u think is best 4 others bcos dere's no such thing as best...n definitely not when u r e 1 saying it...which is extremely biased n not reliable fr a lit point of view...ple shld jus leave each other alone n quit delusioning tt hurting other ple can make urslef happier, n tripping others can make u e winner!! 1stly, all e brain cells u use 2 scheme n plot will sap ur strength n shorten ur lifespan!! 2ndly, dere is no such thing as " happiness" or " winner"...2 me slping8 hours a day is happiness...2 others jus having a simple meal is happiness...Wat is dis? So every1, quit judging every1...in our short lifespan...jus do wat u wanna do...no regrets cos u r responsible 4 urself...n who am i 2 say all dis?
ToRemainorLeave? 10:02 AM
Hais after days n days of endless stuff...starting 2 feel very drained...when i haven even started revision...pengs...but im glad tt wat i feared e most din happen n i jus hope i'll neva lyk sum1 i dun lyk...haha ironic...but anyways i used 2 believe dere's lyk dis sum1 out dere 4 every single 1...jus tt he/she mite b in snother time line or at e other end of e world...tt's y most ple neva get 2 c deir " soulmate" n end up marrying sum1 who dey lyk...or think dey lyk... But now...im starting 2 rethink my hypothesis...mayb not every1 has a soulmate...only sum random ones here n dere...i dunno n dun think any1 can give me an answer too...haha but i realised tt since most of us can carry on living perfectly functional lives without a soulmate...den y worry about not meeting urs? but saying dis, of cos every gal hopes 2 have a happy ending wif her prince charming...wadeva form he may take...looking 4ward 2 1st April dis sat...not bcos it's april's fool, but cos my horoscope says i'll meet e person on tt day...haha seems lyk my "other one" is a fool!! anyway will b staying at home 2 study until evening when i have a dance meeting...so not much hope 2 meet my prince...
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Friday, March 24, 2006
This following blog is dedicated 2 an angel who changed my life wif her honesty, sincerity, love, faith and jus being simply who she is...yup dis is 4 u teo!!! Happy 20th bdae!!!
What does an angel look like?
Does an angel have wings, a halo?
All pretty, pure, wif flowers in deir hair?
Floating on clouds, free from troubles?
A perfect symbol of peace happiness n all things good?
I can't say i know wat an angel should look lyk
But i've an angel rite bside me all dis while
She's e 1 who touched my heart...when i din even noe i had 1 left to touch
e 1 who's a fonecall away, listening 2 my troubles when she herself is troubled
e 1 who would share anything wif me, even though she may not hav everything
e 1 who showed me tt reaching 4 ur dreams wif all ur might is wat life is all about
e 1 who knows me even better den i noe myself
e 1 who's so true it doesn't even hurt when she criticizes
e 1 whose laughter so wild tt any unhappiness was tamed
e 1 who kept giving n asked 4 nothing in return
e bestest fren i ever had...TEOY!!!!!
Yups im not as gd at rhyming as siok is haha sorry...but jus wanna tell u tt u're e greatest ever...to fate which let us meet in our amazing class s27, thanx a billions!!!
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
This is a true story which happened in the States. Sumtimes it may b realli hard 2 control ur anger, especially when it's at its full force. But b4 u get blinded with rage and anger, take a moment to think abt wat realli matters to u..
A man came out of his home to admire his new truck.
To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck.
The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment.
When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands.
When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?"
The father went home & committed suicide.
ToRemainorLeave? 8:09 AM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Once upon a time, i started dis very blog named, " So Yesterday" a song performed by Hillary Duff. I'd have almost forgotten abt dis blog if my lovely buddy teo had not reminded me abt it...so here im writing in dis blog so all my frens especially teo, can noe whether im still alive...n not jus existing...
1st of all, here's an update of me now...i've lost most of my inferiority complex...thanks to dance...but with it i've also lost my innocence..in my world now...every single day i lived my life with a subtle nagging at my heart...so discrete i wunder whether it's even dere...thinking abt wat i have n haven done...bcos sumtimes when u dun do anything abt wat's hurting...u'll bleed to death without a fight...without a struggle...n tt i definitely wun let tt happen...to protect others u mus 1st protect urself...dis is a golden rule in dis world dey called grown-up...to me...dis is jus a silly game played by ple who'd lived a little too long 2 start worrying abt losing e direction of deir lives...n yet lived a little too short bcos deir lives ended long wif deir childhood...
For me, im glad e end of my childhood hasn't quite come near...in fact, im starting 2 believe tt my lifespan wld be greatly outlived by my childhood...all thanks 2 all my lovely frens...esp s27 ple...i luv ya all!!! N oso thanx 2 belle n loo, puey ling, jean, hui2 n sophie...n of cos 2 my fav Maur!!!
I dun think any1 of us hav 2 b forced 2 play dis game...i believe...tt we can create a whole new world...filled wif luv, hope, faith n trust...exactly wat e 4-leaved clover represents... In this world, all of us will b happy for ourselves n for others...in fact dere wun b any word such as " wrong", " mistake" ," bad" and even no "NOs"!!! Of cos, dis only exists in heaven...which i hope all of e ple i luv n even dose i can't stand will go to...but rite now...at dis very moment...y can't we bring it here to earth? A simple gesture of thank you, or a hug 4 a fren, a smile 4 a stranger, an infectious laughter...i believe it is possible...n bcos i believe, sumday it will happen...mayb not in my time...but definitely it will happen...
N to all my frens, thanks for all ur support n love n encouragement...i wouldn't even dream of living my life n take all dis chances n risks of pursuing my dreams without u all...muacks n hugs 2 all my sources of strength!!! Esp teo n jie who countlessly hav 2 pick up my countless calls asking for comfort n sumtimes jus 2 annoy u both wif my whines n whims!!! s27 4eva!!
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